The Next Step In My Life

"Deep in our hearts, we all want to find and fulfill a purpose bigger than ourselves. Only such a larger purpose can inspire us to heights we know we could never reach on our own. For each of us the real purpose is personal and passionate: to know what we are here to do and why."

From the book "The Call" by Os Guinness

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About a year ago I began thinking about doing something different with my life. Waiting around for a computer job to open up wasn't going anywhere. Although Fareway has been good to me and I feel like I'm able to make a difference there, I've felt that the job just wasn't for me. So, I began a journey to find out who I was and what I wanted to do with my life. I wandered through a forest in Minnesota for a few days, took on new challenges, strived to become a better person, went through trials, and talked to a lot of people. During this journey God has been working on me. He's showed me what my strengths are and the gifts that He's given to me. He's also showed me areas I need to work on. Through this whole process I still never really felt any sort of direction.

The past few months I have started to feel the sense that maybe I just need to take a step and see where a path leads me. I've been thinking about going back to school for almost a year, but didn't feel a passion for computers, at least not the networking side of things. It just didn't feel like a fit. So I never looked into it and put the thought on the back burner.

My past few sermons have been over some interesting topics and I really felt this passion for learning more about God, the Bible and stuff like that. Some people even have asked me if I thought about going into ministry or bible college and for quite some time I had said no. Over time my opinion has changed a little bit. I'm not sure if I want to go into ministry, but I think it's time for me to take a chance and go try out a bible college.

I'm not sure exactly where I'm going to go, but I know I'm going this Fall. I've already been accepted to Midwestern Baptist Theological Seminary in Kansas City and waiting to hear the decisions from two other colleges. I'll be going two years and will be able to get my bachelor's degree for either a general ministry or biblical studies.

I think it would be good for me personally and spiritually. I'm going to see what else is out there. To maybe figure out what God has for me. I don't know what I want to do, but I want to give God a chance to help me figure that out. I do know that I want to find a job where I feel like I fit and where I feel a sense of fulfillment. Some people say that job doesn't exist. Well, maybe it doesn't exist completely, but I want to find one that is close to perfect.

I'm just asking for your prayers. Pray that I'm able to have a clear decision when it comes time. Pray that I'm able to adjust well to this major step in my life. Pray that I'm able to find some direction for my life. Pray for my parents, that they'll be able to survive without me. Just kidding. They'll be fine. I know they support me and they'll miss me, but they'll be ok.

Thanks for taking the time to read this and thanks for your support.